This is A WORLD OUT OF MIND, my Online Journal where I explore Consciousness and the Ultimate Nature of Reality by the intentional alteration of my own belief structures, using Salvia Divinorum and additional self-altering meditational techniques drawn from Western Ceremonial Magic.

I always attempt to adhere to the scientific method as much as possible in my explorations, and while I often speak of these experiences as if I knew they were Truth, I always consider the alternative, that it is merely self-deception on my part, and think accordingly. Thus I maintain two parallel world views at once, one aspirational and one a safe fallback into standard materialism.

The more I journey into salviaspace, the more I think the former worldview is the correct one, but there is no objective way to prove that to the world, so I'll let you, the reader, decide for yourselves.

-Saint Brian the Godless

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Wednesday, April 13, 2016

More of the same, but that alone is astonishing...

Short post right now...

Last night, sitting in a chair next to the bed, once again I was in multiple universes, "accordioned" around me. Very similar to last time I was in the "multiverse" state, which was my last post, except that they weren't disk-like. More like layered, but overlapping too. I was also vertically "accordioned" much like last time.

My dog, now 100% deaf from double ear surgery due to infections (he's recovered now, thankfully) was sleeping soundly on the far side of the bed, away from me in my chair next to the bed. (Yes, you know what's coming, don't you?)

So yadda yadda, I see the universes, I am amazed by the universes, and then I start to play around with them, just like last time. All without even realizing what I was doing... it was just the natural thing to do at the time, it seemed.

This time I warped the stack of universes, sending a wave of "cracks" up toward the upper opposite corner of room... the fracturing proceeds diagonally downward through the room... crack... upper part of room fractured... crack... a little more is fractured, proceeding downward through room... crack... more fractures, now upper half of room is fractured, centered on the original upper opposite corner... crack... getting closer to bed... crack... fractured area touches sleeping dogAND HE'S UP AND MAKING NOISES INSTANTLY, on all four feet, obviously perturbed. Instantly, as the fracturing touched him. Asleep. Deaf. I'd been there an hour, done things etc, and he slept through it all... and yet the fracturing touched him, he woke up like I'd hit him with a glass of icewater.

This is insane.

It's getting really hard to discount this.

>>>Late addition to this: I just recalled that at one point just prior to the events described above, I was sitting with my head turned to my left, looking at the top of a safety railing we have on the bed for our dog. The railing at the time was perhaps a foot and a half from my head. So, very close, visually. I was in a vertically "accordioned" state, multiple versions of myself stacked on top of each other overlapping, moving through this stack of "me's" up and down, looking out through many pairs of my eyes but mainly focused on the vision of one main pair with some interference from nearby ones. As I moved through this stack of "me's" and of my bedroom surroundings, that railing kept changing slightly as I looked through one pair of my eyes, then the next, and the next and so on. Slight changes in angle, in the cloth and mesh covering on the railing, in the wrinkles in it, and so on. Each pair of my eyes, was seeing a different railing. All slight differences, but not so slight as to be easily explained away. A change of angle of several degrees, a half-inch new wrinkle at the end of the cloth cover. Definite differences. I should note also that I was not even blinking my eyes; the changes were literally happening as I looked at the railing, as I shifted "universes."

So there's that, too. All in all, a very interesting experience much like previous ones, even to waking the dog in many "on cue," but I retained more details because I stood up right at the end and got my wife in the other room and told her about it. (We have a deal where I can wake her up if it's an important experience that I need to talk about)

INCIDENTALLY: For anybody that can't imagine what my visions are like, I did find something that comes fairly close. Watch the last parts of the New Doctor Strange Trailer Here. Where the whole view is warping and interacting. It can be a lot like that, visually. At least in the general "feel."


  1. I agree - that video is about as good of a Salvia world representation as I can recall - especially at the 1:09 mark of the trailer.

  2. Isn't it though? Really gets the level of chaos across.

  3. Brian, I'm trying to understand (I love these posts by the way)...was this fracture moving through the stack of 'universes' each with a dog in them...or was it moving downwards through one universe?

    By the way, I'm still trying...trying to get possibilities to change. It seems the most important question. If only it could be cracked out (if you excuse the pun) to some kind of reliable procedure.

    Second by the way, I had a very mild salvia experience of my own (in a legal context). Oral absorption. The effects were very mild. Still...I was looking at certain pictures, and had this odd sense of people in the pictures beginning to move, especially when I wasn't quite looking at them directly. Almost like the scene in Bladerunner. At its strongest, this carried a sense almost as if I was being pulled into the picture, into the "space-time moment" of the picture. Maybe it was an illusion...but then, maybe not.

  4. Excellent question because I neglected to mention that as I see the others as a stack, I'm always more or less centered on only one, which changes, as I switch through the stack. So I'd settled in one and was playing with the rest, and so the vision of the stack of the rest of the universes fractured along with the one I was in, and progressed toward the dog, again in the one that I was in.

    After a mild dose of salvia, I can look at any picture and the parts that I'm not focusing on always move, sometimes a lot, again depending on dosage/how much it's affecting me. In many extreme cases I've not only noticed the other parts moving, but noticed *differences* as I would see a part in peripheral vision change, then focus on it, see its position, focus back to center, see it change, focus on it again, and note that it's now not in the same position where it was when last I focused on it.

  5. I can't stress enough that, when I pass from one "universe" into another, I pass through what feels like a membrane almost, and my whole body feels it, even internally. In fact what my body feels and sees, is that the "me" on one side, is a different "me" than the one on the other side. I feel a discontinuity, a place where I disappear and then quickly re-appear on the other side, but this happens not all at once, but first my right arm, then my body, then left arm... it progresses across my body, leaving a "new" body at the end, completely replaced. Very hard to describe.

  6. As the demarcation "membrane" passes over my eyes, they simply seem do disappear "there" and re-appear "here." Like my vision flickers, and then begins again, but on the other side of the membrane.

  7. there is a difference between earlier parts of the trip where I'm in the stack equally and switch from one plane to another, and later as the effects begin to lessen where I find myself playing in one plane with the other planes.

  8. yeah, the membrane thing is not that uncommon, it would seem, in Erowid accounts. Some of these seem to be full blown other "realities" too, not just subtle differences. More like your arm and medieval manuscript thing...

    1. I feel them both on entering universes very different, but more and more just on entering the "nearby" ones that are virtually identical to my own as well. Those interest me more, since they're so "close." Close as in, statistically. Perhaps even overlapping. Perhaps even coexisting in a common stream, in areas of exact overlap.

    aka pboyfloyd

  10. Ian! Hi... and thank you for that, you do know me, don't you. I'll be buying that book soon...

    How's things? Still having fun on facebook? "I just can't" as the kids say. But I miss you guys.

  11. make yourself an account and call urself Donald Duck, post pics of ducks..
    you can just look me up from there and I could 'join' you up with BASH... Blasphemers, Atheists, S(not sure what the S is) and Heretics.
    mac is there.. he posts mainly family pics..
    Sir Russ from Debunking Christianity(commenter)
    I just made an acct because Emma lost her mobility and I convinced her to get on it to keep in touch with her family.
    I mostly play hidden object game and Stormfall, medieval war game, and occasionally rant about politics.
    I youtube a fair bit.. got stuck in that neofeminism thing on account of Atheism+ ... turns out they're kept going by, of all things, social justice and womens' studies university courses, so I guess they think they have the high ground, but they are almost universally despised! LOL
    I've been following the supposed 'graphene revolution'... it's not doing well as far as I can tell.

  12. Interesting... sad to hear about the graphene thing, if it's what it sounds like. As in, revolutionary new material yadda yadda space elevators yadda yadda...
    If I were to Facebook, my wife would probably leave me, such would be the argument. Don't even ask.... let's just say that she's convinced it's a great place to meet your next wife, and also to have your personal info blasted throughout cyberspace lol.

  13. Since the facebook thing is prob one of the only things she asks from me, well, as I said, I just can't.

  14. Okay! Sounds like a terrific reason to not get a facebook account.

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    Love those Onion guys, such incite!